Is it normal to hate my dog, but feel too guilty to get rid of him?

And she doesn’t deserve it either.

man how I wished I could’ve persuaded my parents to get rid of her but they already spent over 900 dollars to get her and they’ll think im some monster. I haven’t told them I don’t want her bcuz of that yet. But I’d think they’d also agree that every time they look at her they also feel depressed and that feeling of guilt.

my hearts heavy. Idk what I’m going to do for the next 8–10 yrs with this thing. And the thought of surrendering it, having it out of my life deeply pains me too.

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or maybe i need to learn a life lesson from this dog and be and look more happy and joyful??? i dont know. I dont know anymore.

me. I would die, trade the world for my first 2 dogs. I’d always call myself a dog person because I always get that feeling. The feeling dogs are suppose to give you, happiness and such joy. As well as in return. But this dog doesn’t return it. It doesn’t even perceive what joy is. This dogs making me very deeply, deeply depressed.

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I always think of ways to make her happy, excited, not such a pussy. But it never succeeds. She’s just a depressed girl and it honestly hurts me inside to even look at her and feel this way when I don't even like feeling this way in front of dogs.

and she’s potty trained too and knows where to go to the bathroom. But we have a backyard and my parents are trying to teach her to go outside, even though I resorted against it cuz she already knows where to go and taking her outside wastes 20–30 minutes of my sleep where she wakes me up TWICE EVERY MIDNIGHT to go… like wow. After 20–30 minutes she comes back inside I close the door behind her only to find huge piles of dog shit under the table where our pad used to be. This situation where she would be out of my eyesight for 2 minutes and the entire house is filled with shit happens way too fucking often and parents are still consistent on training her outside. Even though every time it happens my parents blame ME and ask me to clean it up. For the mistake they they made. Not me. Yet 20 minutes outside and not even a tinkle. It’s like she does it on purpose.

i dont know what else to do. I had a scary dream where I do a horrible thing to her when she did something I didn’t like and it filled me with deep guilt even more.

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Yes. I love dogs, the first one I had was an angel she passed, then I got another dog he is the best dog I could ever ask for. But 2 yrs ago my parents decided to give me another dog, same breed. Maltese. She’s been a nightmare the whole 2 years. She destroyed, bit and ate everything for the first year, I tried to blame in on her teeth aching because she was 2 months when I got her. But she’s just like that. Thankfully that destroying everything habit layed off after that 1 year, but just the way she looks, the look on her face says depressed and sad all the time. No ounce of happiness no matter how much I cherish, love and give her treats and everything she could ask for. Sure it shows in her submissiveness like sitting and licking my hand. But not even a tail wag, the way she walks sad, My other dogs are always so so SO happy! Their tail is always up, eyes filled with hope and happiness. This is the first dog ever to only want to lick MY face and ONLY on the face in particular. I didn’t think much of it cuz she’s a dog but my face broke out IMMEDIATELY AND HARD ASF!!!! I have never in MY ENTIRE LIFE had this bad acne ever.

I’m shaking from the guilt that I could even yell this loud in front of my old dog making him see a me he never saw.

The thought of surrendering it, and just being around it, looking at her depresses me.

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I’m filled with immense guilt for even thinking this way.

I knew I’d have a life of hell and guilt the moment I laid eyes on those depressed unfulfilled eyes.